OK, I did it today. I did the ritual that I have done so many time in my life. Today, though, it was different. Same ritual, for a different reason, though, and it felt better too!
If you are like me, and have fought a weight problem for many years (I’ve been fighting it since I was a young child), you have, I have no doubt, had times when you went through your closet and cleaned out the clothes that no longer fit. Yeah, you know the ritual, right? Usually you put it off, delay it as long as possible. You deny that it is needed, but in your mind you know that half the clothes in your closet no longer fit you, because you’ve been gaining weight. You secretly hope that if you just wait another month, you’ll lose some weight and the clothes will fit you again. But, it never works out like that.
Indeed, today, I opened my closet to get a shirt, and as I looked at the clothes in there, I knew that it was time for the ritual again. I had to go through the closet and clean out the stuff that no longer fit. Only this time, I was throwing out stuff that was too big! What a great feeling! And, I knew that I was going to be getting rid of a bunch of clothes.
Another nice twist today was that I had a double dose of the job. Not only did I have a closet full of clothes that were too big, but my wife had saved and boxed up a bunch of shirts that I had previously (thought I had) thrown out! Stuff that was just too small, and I thought I would never be able to wear it again, I had tossed it in previous rituals. You know what, I even had clothes in that box that still had the tags on them, because I had never worn them before! When I bought them, they were already too small for me. You know what? More than half of the stuff in that box fit me now, and some of it was even too big, and had to be tossed! It’s funny, because I went from having clothes that were too small, I tossed them, only to be saved by my wife and hidden away. Now I tried on the exact item and it was too big to wear! So, it got tossed without even having it’s chance to get space in the closet again! Ha ha… that felt good!
As I was trying on clothes to decide their fate, I would toss those “way too big” clothes on the floor for disposal. A thought entered my mind – “maybe we should box these up so I can wear them if I gain weight back again.” That thought didn’t last long, though, because I quickly decided that if I saved them, I was giving myself an easy out to gain weight. I tossed them, and will never see them again.
I hope I never see those sizes again either! Ah, the ritual. It felt better this time, though.